I've been thinking a lot about changes recently. Not just the little changes like when you gain weight or can't see your toes anymore or not fitting into normal clothes . . . but I digress. I mean the changes that seem to disrupt how you've seen yourself or what your identity is . . . the ones that are sometimes both exciting and scary, or that are simply unexpected.
This past week my sister Juliana came home from her mission in Portugal. It made me think of when I returned from Venezuela. One of the most disconcerting things was returning to a place that seemed to fit who I used to be more than who I now was, or who I wanted to be. It was figuring out what it meant to be me in a world different from the one where I had changed so much.
That reflection has made me also think about the changes coming in my own life. Although there have been a lot of changes over the past year with getting married, in a way Pete and I just seem to fit into what I know about myself and who I am. Thinking of having a little boy in a few months opens the door to a different world, though. One where not only is being me something of importance to my own identity and well-being, but where we both will impact another little person's life in an enormous way. Exciting, amazing and . . . a little nerve-wracking at times. But the thing that gives me the most comfort as this moment of change and the other moments of change have occurred in my life is the one thing that never changes . . . that God knows me, that He is my Father, and that He and His Son, Jesus Christ, are always there, helping me to become who I want and need to be. When I remember what doesn't change, all the shifting of life becomes simply another chance to learn more about Christ, and about who I am.
I loved this video I saw recently that emphasizes for me the things that never change. It's the one titled "Life".
Life
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